Læs dagbog

I've never had the (dis)pleasure of mindreading, but I've been Mindread, on more than one occasion, and it is, I gotta admit, absolutely horrifying. Thing is, yes, i can be done, and yes, it is being done, and yes, Law Enforcement has their agents that does this. - It is, since it is not publicly known, TOP SECRET, but a very important source of intell gathering from both these people, and their adversaries.

I know you will laugh at this, but I really don't care; I've been through so much, also in regards of this, one of the highest orders of magic (un)known to man, and I will tell you about it, one way or another. The first here, but, mostly in my book, out in a few years; the truth will set you free, no matter how harsh.

Thing is, the main reason, there's so much focus of keeping all of you in the dark; AWAY from spirituality and, even, the knowledge of a soul, is BECAUSE of magic; Once you start to work with it, REALLY work with it; spirituality, Reiki, Voodoo, all the jazz, once you start working into the TRUE depths of your soul, then you realize, not only, that your own potential is more or less infinite, but, also, that everything is the proverbial "illusion". - Break into that spot in existence, and everything is both new, fresh and beautiful; it is where the doors to enlightenment are found...

BUT, you fall at that place, your life turns into hell, a horrid hell, where no men are, EVER left out of suffering (You will face three demons, before heaven, and they will tempt you, with ALL your darkest desires! - You accept, just one of their offers, you are screwed!).

Having reached that place, at my 19'th year, and accepted the demons offer, I fell, HARD; and learned pain, you would never have imagined, EVER.

The result was, that I got born to darkness, became so EVIL, that.. For 10 years I roamed; Hurt.. Harvested.. killed.. And my toll was high. At some point, the people, named above, the most secret cells of the LEA, came after me, and they said; "Nay, Simon. To here, and no further.", and they had me stopped; out of compassion, both for my victims, for the world.. And for me..

On the day, they sprung their trap, I was in a train. My "Girlfriend" - in fact, an agent, was there with me, and the whole trip was a setup..

They sprung the trap, by letting me know, that ALL resistance was futile. NOTHING I could say, do or run to, would keep me safe; I was in their grasps.

I was a Warlock. One of the most evil, benigne wicked and horrifying creatures known to the planet. The right arm of the devil, and they came..

.. Sitting in the train, agents and actors, lovers turned fiends.. I sat there, as ALL that went through my mind, my horror, my hate, my anger, my angst.. EVERYTHING I thought, was laughed at, displayed, in words, by the LEA Cell and their agents, surrounding me..

..I was trapped.

"Why did you kill so many people, Simon", they asked me, stopping me, and my answer, then, was.. "Because I could!".

I was horror. I was Evil. I was madness. And I was king.

Today.. 9 years after, I live, in a trailer, with a cat, a PC, a small job, and Jesus as my guide.. But my time then.. Such power.. Such darkness.. Such horror.

I wan't to be saved, I pray, I.. deeply, pray, and ask for forgiveness, as I'm trying.. to live without the soul, they robbed from me..